bear the unbearable
imagine the unimaginable
tolerate the intolerable
understand that why people don't understand

the reality is the interpretation or the interpretation is our reality
are we feeding n' guiding from another source or we're the very source that ourselves decoding n' deciphering from ???

down to the hatch ,,leave her extra earning ..
lives of the street were tough than you experienced

blame is lame ....be there with no judgement

howlingsin harvest

yrs of fox in reincarnation recycling

mind is mine .. you don't take it
you can split it - schizophrenic way

I sentenced myself to death last dawn
as the judge and the prisoner
as the avatar and the story
as the dream and the dreamer
as the actor as the director
observing the observed observing the observed observing the observed ........
subject the object ... object the subject

selfless icon graph
scientism should go fuck itself
ISM = I Served Motherfucker
IMF = I Am Motherfucker

why not science doubt and question itself ? it should ...
UN is a un Us is definitely not us

observing - 9 - i - selfish
observed - 8 - infinity

endless concerts recurring in my imaginary dreams from this pseudo inauthentic lives "lies"
perhaps our lives are interrupted by dreams
or the other way around ..

on market and 6th
Louis and Lestat find their peaces
as I found Megadeth concert in 2004 in the city by the bay

searching for no ego is egotistic
desire for freeing from desires is a desire
what you resist persists
what you fear always show up at the door .. fuck yeah

no nothing to abuse now
what should me be doing now ? recycling ?

world created by words by swords

no more Normal

global collectivism brings eternal death to all spirits in seemingly ever-last existences
illusion of separations keep the bees busy
the middle ground lies in balance, righteousness, awareness in all for all
without abusing, misusing, overusing these terms
terms and words meant nothing
it's the intentions and the meanings within really matter
and oh boy how we been raped by the illusions of equalities,freedoms or crazy democracy ?


subject and the object .. dreamt and the dreamer .. program and the machine
simultaneously we're are the game and in the game plot
endless patterns extend to infinity
the end is the beginning is the end

s s s

subliminal sexual servants of serpents

definition defines meaningless
dictionary dictates our lives ~ lies
collectivism is a bitch

true death is eternal existences

what one searches only solidified its non-existence

inner outer space ~~ outer inner space
prisoners of mind and perceptions


thinking is a disease prevents from the actual being
" you think therefore you are not there "

this imaginary roller-coast rides we must take

dive into abyss
embrace this suffocation
pain or pleasure ~ opposames it's ur call
heretic in hearse
reloading past lives' future dreams
finding meanings makes it obsolete

bleakness and mundaneness
transcend pains to pleasures

victims have no guilt but giant ego
which one is worst ?

wed lock

That's why they call it 'wedlock'. You promise to love each other. That is like promising to always prefer vanilla ice cream over all other flavors. You can say the words; but you cannot make yourself feel feel love in the future. The heart does not listen to the head in that way. In fact, promising to love is the fast track to losing love. It becomes an obligation. Trapping the one you love is not an act of love; it is the opposite of love. It produces trauma - the basis for mind-control.

If a couple wishes to have some kind of gathering of friends, then that is OK. But vows and state licenses are abominations of love. It is so sick and twisted that 'They' messed with our spirituality in that way. What little girl doesn't fantasize about having a big wedding some day? It is no wonder that many people find love elusive. They think it is something to own. If you love her, set her free. If she come back... set her free. She is not 'yours'. Never!

from youtube user Rockstar97321

here there beer

drug as education ED- ego dissolver
ripper the royal as ritual following rapture

Patrick Bateman turns into Batman dark knight
Christian played John Conner (J.C) in Terminator Salvation

Bono the Bozo the Buffoon
Angry Again
Kill the King

Archetype oF Aggression

no return

Last call for alcohol
not calling anyone tonight

my mystic lucid reality sends back me a future past
tears of early morning rain remind me of my car key

cold shower before dawn
meet me on Geary before Six

things long forgotten haunt me still
still did I love the haunting

biting nails drinking blood
luminescence on market & 6th
Louis cried with no tears

undertone undercurrent underworldly conjuring
under the gold bridge , you'll find me found my past

melody with melancholic

dark water merging all I have

vegan vampire v.s hippy republicans

addictions are honest passions
patriotism as collective narcissism
desires and needs over-glorified as love
pride is just exterior of ego
political correctness is not correct
money interests are not peoples' interests

imperialist freedom
imaginations patterned
Artificial Intelligences or Alien Invasions ?

doubled-edges sword is double-edges sword
double-speaking words

we all addicts
to the idea of I

free of freedom
definition is dictatorship

consensus is always con
tyranny is a tranny with y Chromosome

United States is not us
United Nations is always an "Un"

united abomination --- recruiting rewiring revolving ... NOW