when ur young,

u wanna die sometimes

when ur old n' death's closing in,

ur like how about not

This gravity thing keeps bringing me down

*do everything with right intention n' passion

you're the most important person in your life

take care of yourself then others

Hope life is like the first concert you went

short,exciting,in the rain

you hug your friends when it ends

you cry,you say bye, 4/21/05

And my my emptiness makes me full

my loneliness makes me perfect

my darkness empowers my vision

choose 2 walk alone walking through my life without a trace

existing in my non-existence

searching distant calling

listen 2 the silent tears

howling 2 the dark moon

screaming from within

In my soul cage

don't let that sunrise burn me

don't cover me with a blanket of sorrow n' sin

pour me a shot of pure pain in my crystal,

my dark angel, gracefully dancing

bow with a grim and grin

1/10/08 Reno,Dec07

snow is coming down

no idea how 2 put on a snow chain

good run at the slot

Only recollection is the smile from the cocktail waitress

BELLISSIMA

Casinos sell dreams 4 cash

maybe cuz in life nothing is 4 certain

we'd rather bet on a sucker's bet

than play 4 real in life

maybe losing money is better than losing hope

wee hour in the morning Jan08

time heals everything or ur just tired of suffering

Selfish but yearn 4 love Smart but yet to make next mistake

used to be cool n' moody destructive depressed

now I'm just can't get out of it Ironic Eh ?

Even when ur with someone

you'll be by yourself still

Night after night I'm fighting a ghost

Daylight leads you to places

Moon, darkness preserved the past without scars and tears

I don't know who I am

Maybe it's still funny,

I just can't laugh

Maybe blessed with tears,I forget how to

Maybe just my vanity my funny tragic tale 3/01/08 Mar12,08

PAIN is a subjective art form.

it all depends on how you interpret it.

your strength also represents very much your weakness.

One of the things that differentiates us from beasts is that human commits suicide

cuz maybe they refuse 2 sacrifice their value or dreams,

My dealing with the world I saw a lot of selfishness,greed,deception,manipulation,destruction,

I prefer suffering and injecting pain myself

just to keep my dignity.

By doing so,

I surrender to vanity in my own way,

By saying that,I feel so vain again

Pride Religion Belief Hope and dream Vanity Value Heart Freedom

USE WITH CAUTION~

"it can't rain all the time" Eric Draven

or can it ?

If you know that ur shallow,you aren't that shallow

I'll take death with grace

Grace not by your definition

My failure as a human being is also yours

we'll share that sooner or later

If ur miserable like me,

enjoy the suffering

If u hate ur job or life,

u gotta love that

Don't ever let me be the guy who thinks he/she knows it all

"He whom makes himself a beast,get rid of pain of being human"

Happy being an A-hole

if u don't give a shit=happiness

megadeth has invaded my brain

whisky=pee from asshole=muddywater=great

who are we anyway ?

Just animals want to satisfy our every whips and still feel divine and superior how do we do it ?

LIE and DECEIVE

When choose to identity oneself(realizing our natures),

u also choose to exclude which contradicts the very nature of doing it in the first place

Life is not a fucking box of chocolate.

so how come I'm still getting fat

we are just the product of our time babe

Sometimes I feel we're just byproduct of our time

our desireEmotionHopen'Dream r conditioned 2 fit in socially

Tamed animals and trained 2 consume

(source:www.megadeth.com)
An unforgettable experience ...

It was more than two years ago when I saw them.Megadeth meant a great deal for me.At the time ,I still had money in my pocket and still romanticized and justified my lifestyle.They sound great when performing live.After all, those roads they have been travelling on and all the people they have played for made them in my mind I'd like to call"Metal Mercenary"

My dark little secret was mesmerizing n' enchanting yet killed me little by little day by day .The past that I tried so hard to let go and realized I can hardly let it go. Have I become my past-the demon that haunted me for so long ?Full of emptiness please never clean up my wounds cause I won't remember who I am.Cherishing my heartaches as if it's my identity.My scars are my badges.Memories of long-gone friends , foes or lovers still lingered in my head.

Not trying to be abstract ,something just can't never be shared cause it drove people away.

Talk about food

Best food is shared with your buddy, or loved one

Best food is prepared with heart

Best food is when you are hungry,dirty and drunk

Best food is free food

Food is kinda like woman, well anything is kinda like a woman

It depeneds on how hungry you are really..

For the assignment, I like

Sake with Seafood or Pino Grigio

Beers with my greasy food or actually anything will do me just fine

Brandy with a good smoke

Whisky with a flirtatious promiscuous chick

Cristal with some high society debutante

Mescal with an old fat mexcian dude

Beers with Beers

Have a drink with all those you've forgetten or those who you try to forget

Raise your glass for all the long lost friends

Life is a waste of time so why don't you get wasted all the time

(In between find a job to support your habit)